What I really want! I'm not a good writer either a good reader. I'm not a good daughter either a good sister or friend. I try every day to be a better person. I smile to everyone, I call my parents I call my siblings but I can't him. He was for a very long time the best of my life. He was the person I was and I still in love but I cannot tell him that anymore. My life has changed, my mood, my ideas, and my goals. I thought that our relationship would last a lot, many any many years but it didn't happen. I'd like to be confidence, pretty, smart, funny, lovely, skinny, and HAPPY. Ever since we broke up I can't have a normal day. He is in my mind all day, all night, even when I'm sleeping I think of him. I used to picture myself with him having a family, traveling together and go on dates like normal couples do. I don't trust in my feelings anymore. I don't know what to do or how to feel. Sometimes I want to scream at loud what I am feeling but I can't!!!!!! I cry, I have headaches. YEah!! I know, I'm letting myself fall into a big depression...But I don't know what else do!!! I started going to the gym. I keep my mind busy but I'm still stuck on this shit. What I want is to let me go, let me be and set me free. I want to escape from this world full lies. I want to breathe another air . But what really really really really want is to back to the old me. The one who wasn't broken, the one who was happy all the time no matter what. I WANT TO BE FREE