Cindy's notebook entry: An unfailing faith Today is April 14, 2011. Because of the cut down of electricity. I don’t know what should I do. Sometimes I feel my mind is blank, it is always empty and I can’t find anything to fulfill it.. Am I a lonely girl? Maybe…… As time goes by, I realized I have broken up with Vivian for a long time. I wish I can forgot every things that was related with him, but I can’t. I don’t know who I am and what I am looking for. What makes me so unforgettable maybe is I am a freshman in love’ s area. Is there a place in my heart that need someone to live in so that my empty mind can be covered. ” Cindy? Do you lack of love and do you need someone to help you get rid of this situation?” I ask myself in my heart and there is no answer for my question. Frankly speaking, I wish someone can hear my voice that from my deep heart and give me the answer. In my college pretty boy are everywhere, but I don’t really think there is a boy that I was looking for. The one in my heart that is worth of calling soul mate is no exist. This year I was 22 years old and I not a child any more. I should be dependent and take responsible for my family. I want to get a job so that I can make money to support my family. On the contrary, I am still a student and need my parents to send me money every month. Although I have got 8000 RMB scholarship, after I bought a sony computer I was still lack of money. I have gave a call to my mother, through which I know that my parents lived a tough life. In order to support me go on college, they have to work hard. No matter how cold the weather is in winter and how hot the summer is in summer. They still work there without any complaining. I am not a lucky guy that comes from a rich family but I don’t feel upset about it. Maybe I am not rich in physics but I can proudly say that I am rich in mental. I have the love from my family members and my friends. That is enough. I am quite satisfied with my current life and what I want to do next is to study hard to win the largest scholarship. Cindy, please always remember that: to find out what you are and do it on purpose. After the movie~<> . I have write down some beautiful sentences on it. It is just like my understanding on love. Love is always patient and kind, it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure.< Whatever comes, to honor and to cherish him, all the days of my life.> Jamie gone with her unfailing faith.. but Landon explained the love with his wife Jamie~ Our love is like the wind, I can’t see it, but I can feel it. The one I was looking for, I wish you can come to my life ASAP.