Just because There is Korean Idiom likes "Raindrops make a hole". I always take the idiom as my motto of life. It means even though it seems like very big challenge at the first time, but consistently put own's effort doing something, then we finally make impossible possible. I hadn't had comfortable teenager life, my parents always fought each other, they didn't take care about what I was thinking at that time. I spent whole adolescent time by myself and struggle with lonely feeling and insecure my presence. I just felt I was a looser. I had always compared with other teenagers, and blamed on myself , my family, everything surrounded me. and after graduated from high school, I could have a lot of chance to live taking apart from my family. Living in China with my classmate for 2 semesters was most important moment for me to make everything of mine stable. I had confidence about myself, I have started to think myself separate from my family. Maybe the reason why I keep making chances to go abroad is that I hate my family very much. I still feel sad why I have this kind of family in my life. But I want to believe it has to be.I have a lot of potential to overcome this feelings. I have power to straight to see this. I really hope I can make a real happy family. For that, I have to be a good mother, good wife. So, I am trying to read news articles about how to raise child, and am trying to think positively, see a bright side of the world. because I want to be happier than now. My challenge is not ended yet. This fact is that only few close friends have known about me. Maybe I will delete this poster in the future.