You need to be brave to go back

I left Brazil (English spelling) almost a year and a half ago to move to the USA.

I came here to spend one year learning English and traveling around.

I came here to learn English for one year and to travel.

By the end of my first year here I decided to stay longer because I though I haven't explored this country enough.

By the end of my first year here, I decided to stay longer because I thought I hadn't explored this country enough.
Stay here for more time brought to my life things I was not expecting, I got a boyfriend and I made so many friends here during this extra months.

Staying here for more time brought things to my life that I was not expecting: I got a boyfriend, and made so many friends here during these extra months.

Now I have to decide when go back to Brasil. And I can't do it. it is so hard book my flight.

Now I have to decide when to go back to Brazil, and I can't do it. It is so hard to book my flight.
I am not sure what is this feeling about. I love my country, I love the people I left there. Is it because I spend time enough here to build a new social life? Is it because I don`t want have my old life back? Am I afraid?

I am not sure what this feeling is about. I love my country, and I love the people I left there. Is it because I spent enough time here to build a new social life? Is it because I don't want to have my old life back? Am I afraid?
I feel weird, I feel lost, I have no idea what to do. I do not belong here and I do not belong to Brasil anymore. I hope by the time to take my flight I will know the answer already and be ready for what is coming up. Go back is a huge step, maybe more important than the one which took me USA.

I feel weird and lost. I have no idea what to do. I do not belong here, and I do not belong to Brazil anymore. I hope by the time I take my flight, I will know the answer already and be ready for what is coming. Going back is a huge step, maybe more important than the one which took me to the USA.

You need to be brave to go back

I went to the US  to study English  and travel around the country, if I had the time. At the end of my first year over here in the US, I decided to stay longer,  because I thought I had not seen enough of the country. After staying in the US longer than I had earlier wanted, I realize how my life have changed by that decision : I found a boyfriend, and I also made a lot of  friends here during those extra few months. Now, I have to decide whether I should  go back to Brasil. Anyway I can't do it. It is so hard book a flight back now. But, how about later?
I am not sure about my feelings anymore. Yes,I love my country, and I love the people that I left behind, these are without a doubt... But there are still many questions that are bothering right now, questions on why I still want to be here : Is it because I have spend so much time in the US  that I have  a new social life, or is it because I don`t want have my old life back, or am I just being afraid? . I can't answer myself.
I feel confused and  lost; I have no idea what to do. It seems that I do not belong to my country, Brazil,  anymore. I hope by the time I have to take my flight home, I will find the answer  and be prepared for what lies ahead . My mind is still undecided as to what I will do next, but I know that to go back now is a huge decision, maybe more than the one that took me here, the USA.