What I never tell someone about me I'm wondering whether someone understands what I'm bearing right now. My mind is blank and tears are shedding from my eyes. I can't help any more. When I was knee-high to a grasshopper, I was thinking about the committed suicide and leaving my current home. I used to have some friends but we did not have a bridge of mutual understanding. Therefore, I said I did not want such a friendship. All was lies and I hated them. I know what I am doing presently very well and thoughtfully. Lots of pains inside me. It's about my beloved family, my father, my mother. Life is so tough and harsh for me to live and survive. I cannot say life is unfair as I know life treats very well to everybody. He takes something from someone but he also gives him one thing back. He keeps the balance in the Universe. And I understand that law. However, I have got a passion in studying languages, and I do everything I want with a deep compassion. All I think is to purchase the excellence but why I am not carrying out my wants better. I set my goals, tried to follow them and never thought about something distracting me. I want to be a good interpreter and make my grandmother proud of me. She does not need my money but my love. Thanks to her doings to me and my family, we are now better than ever before. I very much love you, nanny.