Strawberry Moon and other stories What's worse than realizing your certainties and ideologies are wrong is to still beleive in them yet having to capitulate and join the opposite side. You don't know who you are anymore, not this self you're trying to leave behind nor this new person you ought to become to keep on going. It's a profound state of limbo and void. You are just a body filling the the vacuum of space and time. You are no one. You are nothing.