I can understand what you are saying. I used to work in a school and we joked about ¨what are the three best things about working here?¨ June, July, and August (our summer vacation). However, as much as I looked forward to the summer, when it got there I found that I was actually happier working part-time in another setting instead of staying home with my children whom I loved very much. Now I do psychotherapy and know that rates of depression for ¨stay-at-home-mothers¨are very high. I think what helps is to have some structure and some conversation with other adults. I currently work three days a week. Financially I could quit working but I am afraid to not knowing how I would happily fill my time after my experiences with summer vacation. What I am finding is that on my days off now, while my husband is still working, I very much enjoy having some language exchanges scheduled with partners I have found here on italki. I want to travel someday, but for now, talking to people from countries I hope to someday travel to is meeting the need. In addition to helping me with Spanish, they tell me about their country, their culture , show me pictures, or watch videos with me. We talk about many things, but people especially like to talk about where they come from. If you are perhaps a bit shy it is helpful to have some ways of working on the language instead of simply having long conversations. The idea of ¨what will I say¨ can be intimidating for introverts. But there are ways of using Skype for language exchanges that focus on an activity or text, and these keep me from being shy. The book ¨The Telenovela Method¨ has a chapter on many of these ways, or we can continue the discussion here if you are wondering about what you will find to talk about with a native English speaker if you feel you have little exciting go on in your life to share in conversation.