I guess there are many  is much more Chinese than English speakers here

Why I don't I  not have a friend?

Yep, I don't have a friend, I didn't know why, but now I know, so I guess I can share it with others and maybe I could can make some new online friends.

because I have mental disoders, and my parents are crazy too.

They have a really bad influences on me.

I became really depressed when in middle school, thank God I didn't kill myself, or I would have had wasted so such a beautiful a life ahead.

I have never had a boyfriend, right. I know it's sad, but mostly it's because of myself, I want to express my heartful apologies to many people. It's all my fault.

Yes, I have psychoneurosis too.

I am reading a book written by an American many years ago, firstly I thought it was just nonsense, bs, well but it's actually not, I should believe in myself. What I told myself is, life sucks. But it'll be cool if I could challenge myself a little bit and see where it goes.

Don't judge me, saying I'm way too passive or whatever. People, except some excellent ones, will never trully stand in someone eles's shoes.

But I will be really grateful if you could help me by correcting this notebook.

God bless.

In the end, why I don't I have a friend?

It's a long story, I will tell you later.