Mar 24, 2011 - self control I feel I am losing my temper. I could not control as well as I used to be. I begin to say out my unpleasant feeling, at least in my heart. Even though I didn't spell them out, that’s not a good sign. Today I received the testing stuff mailed by Minh. But didn’t see any test samples. I guess Minh had forgotten to put them inside. Joe told me to tell him immediately. I did. But a while later. He sent out a new email to describe the detailed as if I didn’t elaborate clearly. I doubt it. I really don’t think that’s his own business. As a manager, I really don’t think it’s necessary for him to put so much effort on it. It looks a bit ridiculous. From my point of view, I think he wanted to show himself but the problem is “didn’t he feel what he had done may embarrass his subordinate? Because their English is too poor to describe something.” I think I overreacted too much this time. No matter what he did, let go of him. What I need to care about is not this kind of thing. So smile, keep smiling. It is not worth of feeling uncomfortable at all. I think I can put it in this way – he has nothing to do at this moment since the new project has been taped out in the middle of March. And he thinks the reason why so many people left or are going to leave this group is he didn't give his team members enough care. That’s what he said in public. He will never ever admit there may be some problems in his working or say management style. Most of the members think his management doesn’t work out at all. But he doesn't know. He can never ever take other people’s opinion, which is what I told by a lot of colleagues. But I think one thing I can learn from him is he thinks he can do everything only if he wants to do that. That’s a good attitude. The other day I attended an English corner about business management. There is an idiom – faking it until you make it. To learn from others and be modest all the time. No matter what he does or what he has done, I have to realize he is good at something. So never put something not important into my heart. Now I feel better.