We are guilty from the birth. (Alina Farkash, translated article, from the site jewish.ru) Part III Then I grew up, gave birth to my children – and both of them I asked to discharge early. Both of them lost their weith, and then grew like thin babies with any mention of cheeks and folds of fat. And both of them ate a little. But, you know, I did not make a graphs and did not weigh their meals: if they wanted to eat – the ate, did not want - did not eat. This manner of my behavior, certainly, made my life simpler during their life, but on the other hand my children grew up without feeling guilty, and I lost my heroic image and powerful method of influence. My Mom, in her turn, had her own feeling of guilt to my Granny: during her pregnancy my Granny got some kind of rear infection, because of which she lost all her hair. Then she had two options – or to make abortion and to be treated with very serious drugs or to give birth to my Mom. She preferred to give birth to Mom and at the age of 20 years old she rested without any hair. It was a real tragedy for a nice, beautiful girl, but during many years she inspired to mind of my Mom that Granny donated her beauty for saving Mom’s life. And my Mom paid constantly for this huge act from Granny. They didn’t buy to me a bicycle because of “but we love you, we are afraid that you would fall and hurt yourself! Only parents that don’t care of their children buy to them bicycles, they don’t care about their health. I wasn’t allowed to have a trip - because it is dangerous, who knows what can happen! When I lived separately already from my parents, and my Mom hadn’t opportunity to influence to me and not allowing me to let go, nevertheless, she did not let me go by her own way: “You know, when you are going to the club, I am very anxious, I can’t sleep at night, I sit near telephone and wait for your call… Surely go there and have a good time. Just call me, when you will come back. You know, I had a high blood pressure, I called an ambulance… So don’t forget call me, that I won’t be crazy because of you and would rest a little. Dance! Be happy!”