I have had some dreams where I speak English very well, but in a real life I can't do it, subconscious?

Hi, my name is Dany. I'm 30 years old, and I'm from Monterrey, Mexico.  and This is my first entry on italki,com.

In All my life I have tried to learn English, but I don't know why I can't learn it.  I feel good that i can understanding a lot of things in English, but I feel bad for my insecurity to when talking English face to face.

I have been dreaming that I speak English face to face without problems.  After I wake up, and I feel a freaky sensation like as if my subconscious was a traitor hahaha.  I wish to learn English right now and  by then I can laugh of at that freaky feeling.

Ladies and gentlemen, please help me to make real this dream to speak English. =D
Cheers...

I hadve some dreams where I speak eEnglish (English should always start with a capital letter) very well but in a real life I can't do it, subconscious?

Hi, my name is Dany I'm 30 years old, I'm from Monterrey Mex. and this is my first entry on italki,com

In all my life I have tried to learn english (or 'I have been trying to learn English all my life) but I don't know why I can't learn it, I feel as though I have a good understanding of a lot of things in english but I feel bad for my insecureity to when talking english face to face.

I have been dreaming that I speak english face to face without problems, after I wake up and I feel a freaky sensation like as if my subconscious was a traitor hahaha I wish to learn english right now and by then I can laugh of that freaky feeling

Ladies and gentlemen, please help me to make real this dream to speak english. =D
Cheers...