I am looser. Yes, I am. I dreamed about I have dioloma in my hands. I waited for those days I will be free. I had a lot of plans. But ... There is an one BIG BUT. Two weeks ago I felt dizziness, but I decided to go to University to show my almost prepared diploma anyway. I drunk a lot of pills to make me better but it hadn't worked when I came to University. My professor was busy and I set down to wait for her. Then was something strange with me. In one moment I thought that all my words in diploma are wrong, I did it all wrong, I don't know why. Then I couldn't breath, my mind refused from air and I didn't know what to do alone in little room for students. Then I started breathe deeper and not of all breath gave me a satisfaction. My hurt was so fast, like I have run 42 km recently, and so loud in each ear. I was scared, I thought that I am dying. I was shaken inside and outside. And in this moment some teacher accidentally saw me, called to emergency, gave me sweet tea, measure my tenpereture and hurtbeat. In hospital my doctor neurologist told me, that I am some kind of crazy - because it was panic attack with paranoia. I am really was very nerveus, but i didn't mind, that I am so nerveous. So, now I have now diploma. I am gonna get it it June of 2016. Pity, crazy, I can't to make a dot with this deal. And one soft asylum got a file on me. You see, Arkham in my chest is real place now. Now I am treated. magnetic resonance therapy revealed a cyst in my head, but it is not terrible, operation gonna be soon. Oh, you even know how crazy those people who treat us.