the panic experience during serving temporary position Last year, to devote myself into the development of FTA Pilot Area, I volunterly applied to serve the temporary position in the some Area Comprehensive office， where I can use my expertise in International trade and economic. Then I left my teaching platform and my child aged less than 2 years old. The moment I walked away, my eyes is filled with tear and heart so hurt. I tried to ignore the “mommy call” from my little child.During the period, I only see my child 1 time on weekend. While the moment I stepped into the office, I was shocked to know that we are the staff members in the office only handling the business involved in copying files for leaders, hosting the guests,collecting information to the upper levels. It is the office affairs which need no any special talents. I came here not to gain the new experience for office affairs. I am here to help do the researches for how to promote the reforms and openness effectively. So I applied to go back to my original position just as a teacher, and then I can take care of my baby. They refused my application, and proposed to stay here for 3 years. What a long time it is! How miserable of my decision to devotion I have made. Who should be blamed! Maybe only myself. I deserved to this treatment due to that I am so navie that I have made decision to devotion and trusted them.