How blessed is my life!

I can't forget last Saturdays service message in Ochanomizu. Pastor Shimomura spoke that it was better to pray our true wish and be honest about it. This message reminded me of a past experience. When I entered high school, I longed to have more confidence in myself. You see, I was born and raised in a poor family,  and I did not want to be looked down upon by my peers. So I studied very hard and strived for greatness in everything I did. I believed that this was the right thing to do and in doing so, God would bless me. Having more confidence was not something I needed, I had realized this when I was around my true friends. With my Best Friend I did not have to strive to be anyone else but myself and that made me feel comfortable.I think that sometimes we don’t know our true wish, and only God knows whats best for us. I’m grateful to God for leading me to my happiness. Oh, how blessed my life is!

How blessed is my life!

I can’t forget the last Saturday's service message in Ochanomizu. Pastor Shimomura told us that  we had better to say and pray our true wishes very honestly. This message remains reminded me of a past experience. When I entered a high school, I wanted to be more confident.more confidence by myself. Because I was born and raised in a poor family, and I didn’t wanna(*) be looked down because of my family's status by family reasons. So I studied very hard and strived to do everything (perfectly). I believed that it is this was right, and God will would bless me, but having a more confidence was not my true wish. When I have began having a best friend, I noticed it that what I wanted was to have a peace of mind and to be bailed (freed) from the strong strain. By having a best friend, I could say a lot of things honestly and feel relaxed every each time. I think we sometimes don’t notice our true wish, but God only knows everything about us. I’m grateful to for God to for leading me in a good way. How blessed is my life!

* I didn't wanna - is very slang

the correct form is  - I didn't want to

This is a very nice and uplifting story.