I'm a cutie girl :)

My male friend always said I'm cute, but I never believe in this :) I usually see myself in the mirror and I wish my head was small, my eyes were big, and my hair was long and black,........... Lots of things to wish:) This is because when I look at hot girls and then look at myself, I am always feeling I am so ugly :) I'm always afraid that when I have a boyfriend, and he will be betray me because of other beautiful girls.. ( I saw lots of situations from my friends that had their boyfriends. However, when they and their partners loved each other for too long a time, they might be bored of each other and their boyfriends had an affair with other beautiful young girls. I was so disappointed about it and I'm always worried about my appearance)
Long time ago, my best male friend said to me that if I had not been beautiful, and someone has loved me, I would have a nice boyfriend who has really loved me not because of my appearance:) Until now, I always try to believe in that mystery :)
And what do you think about what i said? ^_^

[Good work.  Women of almost all modern cultures seem to be overly critical of their own looks and lack confidence.  The fact that many quite beautiful models have many eating disorders tells me that no matter how good looking some women are, they will tend to be very harsh when they judge themselves, partly as a result of the way women are portrayed in the media.  Women in primative societies, with no television or magazines, worry much less about how they look.]