There are things she can not forget until she dies

When she asked her father for money, he always started by telling her that she was nothing but a sponger. After telling her how hard he had worked to earned it, and remindinged her that if he didn't have to pay for her school, he would not/never have to work that much, he finally gave her money finally. Sometimes, he called her by bad names when he was angry.
Time goes by and she is a amature woman now. A bad memory is llike scars, and sometimes it hurts. She understood that a kids who is with low little education, a lack of love and who had suffered a hard life, as had her father, he will grow up with negative thoughts, wicked words, but she still can could not forgive him somehow. She visits home monthly and supports her parents with money, or buys some things for her fathers, but she feel like as though she does it because of her responsibility, not her love for him.