Something about life Even after almost three years, the situation still not cleared...sometimes I got lost, doesn't know what I really want, what should I do to change it. Maybe it will never be able to change, this thought always appear in my mind. I love this man so much, its so pure, but now the relationship is tense and unhappy because of the same problem... Sometimes listen to a lot of music can make me forget those worries; sometimes when I went to swing social dance can release my pressure. But these are temporary resolation that can't really solve the real problem. I even tried to do more things I want, hope these can distract myself. I still not feel regret to break up with my ex-boyfriend because I know I won't feel happy if I married him. Yes, I have freedom now, and I suppose to enjoy everyday, learn as much as I want, despise if we could be together. I shouldn't lost myself but need to keep positive.