Why I am doing what I’m doing.

Sometimes when negative thoughts cross my mind I inevitably ask myself “WHY?”

"Why did I reject an incredible job offer in the oil industry?" When I had spent 5 years studying engineering to qualify for a job just like that, and 3 more looking for one. I almost get angry with myself when I think of all the money I could have earned if I had accepted that job offer, especially since my money situation at the time was really tight.

"Why do I refuse to leave my country?" When the political and economic situation is so bad and a lot of other people are leaving for better futures elsewhere. I know I would never be able to buy a car or a house. Only the super rich can afford those.

"Why did I reduce my teaching hours?" Hence earning less which means I won’t be able to go backpacking or travel the way I want.

"Why do I do tons of things during the day;like volunteering, researching, and studying?" When I know I have to work at night, and so I have no time for relaxation.

"Why do I do all these crazy stuff?"

Everything started when I was 16 and I had a vision of doing something worthwhile for others. During the years that followed I ignored that vision until last year when I decided I wasn’t going to ignore it anymore. I said to myself: "I am going to do everything I can to accomplish the dream of that 16 year old girl." This is why I said no to that lucrative job offer. Because even though at that moment I didn’t have any money or any idea of how to accomplish my dreams, I did know that working as a petroleum engineer wasn’t going to put me on the path that I wanted to walk. The only thing I had back then was the dream and the wish of finding a job that would allow me to fulfill it. I wanted to accomplish this by working half the day, and use the rest to help others.

I did found that perfect job: teaching. Teaching gave me the opportunity to work only half the day if I wanted to. But I still had a problem, I had no idea what to do to help others. So I ended up teaching full time for 8 or 9 hours daily. I earn a lot of money teaching full time. People ask me why don’t I go and live in another country since I have the money? They say I will have a better future that way. They are puzzled why I am still living in my country. I don't answer them, but quietly tell myself: "If everyone leaves, who is going to be left? Who will be the solution to our problems?"

My reason for staying in my country is, and was, that I want to help where help is needed, and oh Venezuela needs a lot of help!... It continues...

Why am I doing what I’m doing?

Sometimes when negatives thoughts come to my mind I asked myself, “WHY?”

Why did I say “no” to an incredible job offer in the oil industry,? after spending 5 years studying engineering, and 3 years looking for a job in that area?, Why did I say no when I was going through a bad economical ["economic" es mas comun] situation?

Why do I refuse to leave my country?, when the political and economical situation is so bad and a lot of people is are leaving to find a better future? and When I knew I would never be able to buy a car or a house, because just really only rich people can do that?

Why did I reduce my teaching availability hours, hence [o "therefore," menos formal] earning few less money? Which This means I won’t be able to go backpacking or travel the way I want.

Why do I do tons of things during the day like volunteering, researching, and studying...? when I know that after all of that, at night, I have to work at night, hence having leaving me no time to relax during after a long day.

Why do I do all those this crazy stuff?

Well, everything started when I was 16, and I had a vision of me doing something for others, helping others. During For so many years after that, I ignored that vision, but last year I decided I wasn’t going to ignore it anymore. I said to myself that I was going to do everything to accomplish the dream of that 16-year-old girl, and that’s why I said no to the job offer., because Even though at that moment I didn’t have any money or any idea of how to accomplish my dreams, I did know that working as a petroleum engineer wasn’t going to take me to the path I wanted to walk., so What I only had back then was the dream of helping people and the wish of finding a job that would allow me to work half of the day and the rest of the day look for ways on how to make my dream come true!

So I found that perfect job. Teaching gave me the opportunity to work during half of my the day and work toward do something for my dream the other half, but I still had a little problem,: I had no idea what to do to start working on my dreams, so what I did was to work for 8 or 9 hours daily, hence earning a lot of money., then People started to ask, "Why don’t you go and live in another country if you have the money to do it? You would have a better future., Why are you staying here?" and I would just say to myself,; "Well, because if everyone leaves, who stays here? Who stays here to try to solve the mess we are in? Who stays here to be part of the solution?" My reason for staying was and is that I want to help where it is needed, and oh Venezuela needs a lot of help!... It continues...