Just wanna share my emotion Today, after taking 2 classes, I cameback to my room. In class, we had a small party and played some games. I laughed alot. But when I got home, I felt something really strange. Sad and tired. I really don't want to share negative emotion because I know that sometimes it can effect the other people's emotion. ( that's why I always smile in front of my friends even when deep inside my heart I was really sad ) But this time, I can't stand it, I have to write it down and hope that it'll make me feel better. This is the first time I played an role as a monitor and also the first time I was a Master of Ceremonies (at a party that I meationed above).I had I partner, he had more experiences than me, he's more dynamic than me. And this time I felt like I was an unwanted person because he talked too much, and then I just standed by him and did nothing Of course after that, I tried to do my job but because I had a negative feeling in my mind so......:( I always try to be a happy and brave girl but sometimes I felt frustraded. Sometimes I felt I need someone to go crazy with me. But it's hard. It's hard because I don't want to open my soul, I don't want to share my feeling. After I wrote this paragraph I'll stay strong. What you think will affect your action. I CAN DO EVERYTHING I WANT. I have to remind me this everyday. Get up and to home work. Time for sadness is over. :smile: feeling better now.