thanks so much, i have a little confusing

Often this expression is used when you are trying to admit that something is true. "If I am honest with myself" is used when the person speaking has pretended that something is not true and they are trying to stop pretending, and face reality. For example: "If I am honest with myself, I really need to lose weight." (Person recognizes that they need to lose weight and is thinking about making a change) Sorry if this explanation is confusing! It's a complicated expression, for sure.