FRIENDSHIP IS ENDLESS JOY

Suffering so strong for death of a dear friend releases all memory biggest friendship, that nature conserves intact and genuine in time. A suffering so terrible and intolerable that resounds in all moments of life from origin to death. A lost friend, a timeless love which imprints the spirit in life, make it immortal and simirarly waits for own turn with hope to join with friend.

"THE ARTE TO GET SENSE OF LIFE" by Antonio ELIA

It seems like you wrote this and it means a lot to you so I'm not sure I will accurately capture the spirit of what you intended but here goes:

When you suffer so badly for the death of a dear friend it ressurects every memory of that great friendship and preserves it forever. The suffering is so terrible and intolerable that it pervades everything for the rest of your life. A lost friend and timeless love imprints their spirit on your own heart; makeing them immortal whilst you wait for your own turn hoping to join them in heaven.

My sincere condolences.