my love

I have been impressed by some girls in my life and i have chatted with them ,gone out with them .But unfortunately,I have never been with anyone. .I feel a little bit disappointed about it.I think so because i have never loved anyone so much so that they can accept me.Whenever   I meet a lovely girl,i always have the thought (feeling?) that i want her to become my girlfriend.After about 1 month chatting with them,maybe more,i often feel I'm not in love because they weren't interesting enough and i don't want to go on with these relationships.I wonder why i often feel that and what i'm going to become in the future. how the girl i really want to go with in my life will be like . I'm a little bit worried. i'm very scared that i don't have a girlfriend .But eventually life is happiness ,so i always think possitive .HIHI