There is nothing to be upset about. Makeep a Mission in life that can personally lead you. Then set some goals that must flow out of your Mission. Principle based goal is what why and how. Most people just start doing things without any purpose. No matter how hardly they work, it goes useless. Because they never focus on "Why". Life is very short to live. In order to think about your future, there are some steps to foĺlow. As you know in every learning there is process. Similarly in starting the great life, there is process. You should know what you are really passionate about. What is it that you really want to do. No matter how much time it does take, but if you are more confident and you are internally motivated, you can do it as soon as possible. Believe me once you make you your Mission and set your goals from Mission, you can then fcous and execute to achieve your goals. Until you know where you want to go, neither you can get directions from within nor from others. What do you really want? Do you want to be a succeasfull person or do you want to make contributions in your life? What is it that you really want. Successfull people know why they are doing what they are doing. Best of luck dear. I wish you a very happy Christmas day. Mahesh