I feel so sad.Am I terrible? As the title shows I feel so sad now.Today is my 21st birthday which should be the best day of a year.And I could be happy.I recieved many gifts and best wishes from my family ,my friends and my roommates.I felt the warmth even in such a freezing cold winter.However,I got an anonymous package just now.There is a beautiful necklace in it with a four-leaf clover pendant that symbolizing "lucky".I was really surprised.And I checked the number on the package by the lure of curiosity and then called back to the store to ask where is the fine gift from.But now I think it's the most stupid decision I have made .Because I knew the anonymity is my ex-boyfriend.We broken up on October and all blame on me.I hurt his heart.I thought I had no feeling about him.Maybe the story was a mistake at the beginning.I knew he love me very much and that was the reason why I decided to start a relationship with him.As the day goes on, I found I didn't love him at all.I just enjoyed ,collected his love and repayed nothing.When I realized it,we have been together almost 2 years.Moreover,he treated me as dear as his life.But I must stop everything! I knew it's a big mistake! So I said goodbye to him before 2 months.I felt guilty but I don't want to cheat him anymore.He do care about me and even ask my friends about me.I ignored all his messages and care.Now I receive his gift again.I can't stop crying because I'm a sin.What should I do? Am I a terrible person?Love must be something I don't deserve!