I Was A Sailor, I Was Lost In The Sea Changing the country of your living leads to many things....depend of your personality.....depend how mature you are...depend who you will find on your way... You will grow up, fast and in pain. I have just read some girl notebook entry, where she was writing about her suffering. A very natural problem. The only difference was, she was alone with it. It is hard. This state of mind deepens everything. One feels all elements, one wouldn't even notice while living in 'normal circumstances'. In the end of the road is a beautiful field, where sun is shining and one have everything what one wants. Challenging oneself will benefit. Always. Some people won't understand you, they won't accept you, quite possibly you will do the same to someone. Don't give up, you are okay, you are worth it. Find the best way for you. It calls 'being aware', not selfish. 'Our times' are strange, but where there any normal ones? Exactly. So....smile and get out of your room!