Night

Night. I should go to bed, but I can't sleep.
So many much has happeneds in the last few days. Firstly I had psychodrama lessons. We studied on our own material issues and I worked with my troubles. It was high, shockingly and strong. I love this psychotherapy technique so much. We worked with our deeply buried emotions, meanings, and metaphors. We had a trance experience (better to say "we were hypnotized" or "we were put into a trance"). Well.
If you are a girl and grew up in Russia - you know - you could never can be angry. Girls must be nice, pretty, good and gentle. Fight? Nevermind (better to say "don't even think about it" or simply "never"). It's only for boys. Agressive? Such an awful things!
But our agression is basically is only (better to say "just") an energy. Our inner force, our spring of resources.
It was cut down. You should be a girl (we have a phrase, instead of "be a girl" we say "be lady-like"). You should be gentle.
And I worked. I worked with my body-blocks. When I became angry - firstly I freeze. Secondly - I feel a spasm in my throat. After that I feel like I can't say anything. And, finally i get a  headache.It's not only psychosomatics symptoms - it's my cell. Cell for my agressive, cell for my energy, my force.
I know, it's sounds very strange, but it's true.
We worked with only one block, about 1.5 hours (better to say "an hour and a half". And I remembered all my childhood, my first teacher, my grandmother and so many simple things... like - "Masha, you are not a boy, don't climb on trees", "Masha, you shouldn't elevate the raise your voice", "Masha don't do this things, Masha don't do that". All the time, everywhere.
I was very energetic child, very clever and very straight (better to say "direct"). And if somebody did bad things to me - I prefered fight, rather than use words. But it was ban (better to say "forbidden" or "looked down upon") .
Very simple story, right? But i have cried for all 1.5 hour. And I found a backdoor outlet for my force energy. It's unexplainably breathtakingly. These words, because it was were very hard and strong.
Secondly I have started an English book that's not adapted for my english level. And I can read it! I can't stop, i want read more and more. Sure, I can't translate every word, but i can catch the meaning.
And finally... In Moscow have been awful things today (better to say, In Moscow something terrible happened today). A schoolboy killed his teacher. It's only one crime in our great city, in our country, but I sense very intensively - how the world has become crazy. Crime, murders, homophobian laws - it's something in the air. Dangerous, another and another.
But I'm going to a training court with my dog tomorrow, and I'll wake up early. I need to go to bed.
But I can't sleep...

Very simple story, right? But And yet I have cried for throughout the all entire 1.5 hours. And I found a backdoor for my force. It's unexplainably breathtakingly. This words, because it was a very hard and strong powerful experience.
On an unrelated note (or you can say "In other news,"), Secondly I have started reading an english book. It is not adapted for my english level, but And I can read there it! I can't stop. I want to read more and more. (Here in the US, we use the phrase "I can't put it down!" to express when we're enthralled in a book.) Sure, I can't translate every word, but I can catch a the meaning.
And finally... In Moscow, things have been were awful things today. A schoolboy killed his teacher. It's only one crime in our great city, in our country, but I sense very intensively it has greatly affected me - how has the world become so crazy. Crime, murders, homophobian homophobic laws - it's it must be something in air. Dangerous, another and another. <-- I'm not sure what you mean to say. Maybe "The world is only becoming more and more dangerous."
But I'm going to a training court with my dog tomorrow and must I'll wake up early. I need go to bed.
But I can't sleep...

Dear Maria, I pray that you continue to make great breakthroughs in your therapy sessions. It's always a big, vulnerable step to speak about such intimate experiences and I appreciate that you had the strength to share them here. I hope that things in your life only get better for you as you continue to seek self-awareness and resilience. Great work on your English!! I hope my responses are helpful. Continue to enjoy learning English! You're going to be a great English speaker someday soon! :)

Night

Night. I should go to bed, but I can't sleep.
So many things happens happened in these last days. Firstly I had psychodrama lessons. We stadyed focused on our own material and I worked with through my troubles. It was high, shockingly and srong <-- Perhaps instead "It was an intense, shocking, and powerful experience." I love this psychoterapist technic psychotherapist's technique so much. We worked with our deeply buried emotions, meanings, and metaphors. We had a trance experience. Well.
If you are a girl and grew up in Russia, you know that you can never be angry. Girls must be nice, pretty, good and gentle. Fight? Nevermind No way. It's only for boys. Be aggressive? So the awful things! <-- Perhaps instead That is not a girl's behavior. or Not if you're a girl. 
But our agressive aggression is basically is only a type of energy. Our inner force, our spring of resources.
But in Russia, it was cut down. "You should be girl. You should be gentle." 
And I worked. In the therapy session, we also I worked with on challenging my "body-blocks," as I like to call them. When I become angry, I firstly froze freeze. Secondly - Then I feel a spasm in my throat After that until I feel that I can't say anything. And finally, I get a comes headache. It's These are not only psychosomatics symptoms - it's they comprise the cell (or to be stylistic - "They are the walls of my cell) that contains my agressive aggression, cell for my energy, and my force.
I know, it's sounds very strange, but it's true.
We worked with only one body-block for about 1.5 hours. And During this time, I remembered all of my childhood, my first teacher, my grandmother and so many simple things... such as - "Masha, you are not a boy, don't climb on tree", "Masha, you shouldn't elevate the your voice", "Masha don't do this these things," "Masha don't do another things". Every time, everywhere.
I was very energy energetic child, very clever, and very straight child. And If somebody did bad things for to me, I preferred to fight, neither not use words. But it was ban. <-- Do you mean "bad" or "banned"?