Feel like breaking the screen

I've been doing an English speaking practice called shadowing. It is a practice which is to repeat after a script is read on video with English subtitles on YouTube. I practice it every night. Usually I come home from work about 11 pm (maybe I'm doing too much over work) so I can practice from 12 am or 1 am.

However, I can't read English in spite of my practicing. My tongue doesn't move well. Every time I get annoyed and feel like breaking the screen. Furthermore, if there were some words I don't understand the meaning I just repeat the sound. I'm not sure if this practice does any good, but I think it will be better than doing nothing, so I keep on doing it every day.

In addition to the practice, I put my corrected English diary on Evernote and I read it aloud again and again. I think I'll be able to remember more if I practice with my own diary because these are my thoughts. (This might not make sense but I don't know how to say it.)  I even put out a dummy skype camera and talk to the lens as if there is a person there to talk to.

By the way, when I try to remember things, I tend to remember terrible things better than good things. According to that rule, if I get sad or irritate or feel like fighting, I might be able to remember more English. But I don't want to get annoyed. I'd rather make steady effort to study.

true. control your emotions; negative emotions are a waste of time and mental energy. yes, easy to say, hard to do, for most al of us.  fluency in any language is at least 2000 hours of work, give or take, at least that's what i have been told, so patience is necessary.