Translating a song no.2 (Japanese to english) それでも特別になりたい I still want to be special to you この胸でこじれた　激しい嫉妬が　夜にきしむ… intense, twisted jealousy in my chest at the creak of night こんな苦しい　想いをするなら If thinking about you was this painful ずっと一人　その方が　気楽だったさ staying alone would have been more comfortable キョーダイの思い出が　近すぎて衝突する the memories of our siblings are too unclear, creating conflicts 訳ありの　過去がほら　傷口をひら The past has opened up old wounds どうして心配してくれる？ Why are you worried? 家族だからなんて Because we're family もし軽く言われたら　その意味…「嫌だ!」 If you took that lightly, it meaning is 'I hate it' どうにか特別になりたい I want to be special to you in any way 朝も昼も夜も　禁断のいきどおりをまさぐる Day and night, as i tamper into the forbidden 訳ありの　過去がほら　傷口をひら