diary 2013/10/21 I realise suddenly I really need to concentrate on my IETLS and french. So I plan to reschedule my time, in particular ，I resigned my job the month and supply by my parents now. I feel shamed. But I surf the internet all the time at home or play my HTC .I use study as a pretxte for funny. I do not want to live up to my parents'espiration and myself ambition. Above of all,I decide I will go to the districtal library tomorrow, so I can forus on english's reading ,listening and writing. in the house my mama always keep talking the stock with me.... I cannot stand the conversation.......Even through I sometimes speculate in the stocks only for my pocket money, I need my private space!!!