My University and ACYA. After finishing my first year at College, I am admitted by my University and got into year 2 about 5 weeks ago. I am an international student so I was thinking of joining a club and getting to know more people. Then i found ACYA (Australia China Youth Association) and joined it. Basically the club is doing Chinese and English exchange twice a week and I really enjoy it. I am already a part of its committee and was elected as the treasurer, as you can see, everything looks great, however, i feel so stressed when i found other members of committee who are fluent in both English and Chinese and i am just an international student who came to Australia last year and sometimes, i still have difficulties on understanding them. I feel so bad about it and then i just push myself very hard to learn English, which makes me more stressed and less motivated. The worst thing is i start to worry about my future and career every second and become angry at my study and English. I am a positive person but recently i am getting more negative and depressed, which makes me think everything is hard and impossible and i even doubt whether i can finish my degree or not. I am trying to cheer myself up and I believe everything will be better and better:)