Meeting You Feels Awkward I dedicate this notebook to my friend, a friend that not so close but I know he's a friendly and caring person. I treat him like a friend maybe not personally but through online conversations. I am a person who takes all my problems with me and doesn't leave any trace to my friends. I don't want to see them suffer because of me. This friend and I were like close to each other online. Chatting in each other's status or posts. It's like when every friends do having a conversation online. He was my classmate recently and as a friend, I did miss his naughtiness, craziness and his humors. He went to our school this afternoon and I admit, we're not that close in person but those times that I chat with him, it feels so real like I'm talking to him in person. I didn't know what to do but to pretend that everything seems normal and smile as I always do. I walk past him but didn't smile or even greet at him due to my awkwardness and SHYNESS. I really missed him but I can't express it properly in front of him. Every time he looked at me as if he was waiting me to smile back at him. I felt bad seeing him leave. I was a bad person, really bad. He shared a status online and he seems happy about visiting but he mentioned someone in our class who seems to have a high pride but he didn't include a name because he/she has account on that site and might read that conversation. And take note IN OUR CLASS, and that includes me.I felt a tension on that time and was hurt. I feel sorry for him. I even wanted to say sorry in front of him but I just can't because I'm not sure of I'm the one he said that having a 'high pride'.I can only think of the word, REGRETS. I regretted every single time that he waited me, looked at me and I said or expressed nothing as if like he didn't feel like I missed him which is not true. I'm not just good in expressing my feelings that's all so writing here makes me feel a little bit better because even if I didn't share this to my friends, I was able to write it here. The next time he visit our school (which he will) I WILL SURELY put my attention to him as a friend. I hope to see him and hang out with him with our other friends...