why so many people hate chinese,even the chinese themselves? today after my hiking,i drinked a few cup of tea at a tea house which owned by a friend who i didnt really talked a lot,and today,i think this is the late day we talked so much,and the first time we talked so much too,he appreciated me a lot which made me really so happy,he said i am a very special girl who knows a lot of thing,and who read a lot,he thinks that boys love me,but i said,i am celibataire,i love so much be alone,when he asked me if i have a boyfriend,i said no,but actually i have hesited for some seconde,yes,i dont have a boyfriend,why you have to have a boyfriend,when you can mastubate,and when the one you love hate you?so,better not fall in love,and better reading,better not to have a boyfriend,and be a celibataire!and be a great human...i am so sleepy!~~i want to sleep...but there's no bed...i dont think people is selfish,i think they are kind,just the society ,the money,and many other reason make people changed...and now,i think i can go to bed now,after my rest in the mountain,i will be back in my home,my real home with my dearest grandparents....i cant stop to thinking of them,,,