Recent thought I feel really decadence.I'm too busy to spend enough time studying.I'm worried my English learning so much that I cannot fall sleep at night.The next morning I'm tired on my way to company.It's really hard to open my eyes.My life is in such a mess.I think I need to buy a bottle of wine.Maybe it's helpful to my sleeping.I do my best to spend my spare time on English learning.But the main problem is that I always remind myself even I do like this there will not be any improvement.I think only put myself into the native speak environment can I speak English well.It's a pity I have no chance to go abroad.Spending two years studing English in China is a wise choice.Without guarantee.So I'm feeling annoyed.It's a hard time.