Feeling Alone

I woke up and it was 5am. I waited until it was 7am and I just figured out that no one would call or message me. Everyday is never ending and everyday I feel alone.

Wide awake 'till midnight, I'm thinking of the last time I had a good time. not quite sure what you're trying to say here 

Spending every single day on your own is never easy, but I'm used to it. Though, I can't help but think, what is wrong with me? Why don't I fit in with anybody? I try to be nice to them and they hate me. If I'm mean to them, then they criticize me. It's like I'm the one they love to hate. They are always there to point out my mistakes and shove them in my face. Of course I have family and relatives, but being alone and feeling alone, there is a difference. Most of the times I'm surrounded by people that make me feel alone, so I'd rather go to a corner where I can be alone. My relatives are fake. They are like demons dressed like angels. My family on the other hand is not around as usual... 

Well at least you have people from italki to talk to. I hope people here will support you, if not I will. I do apologise, I'm using my phone and it's not as easy to correct compared to a laptop. But I do hope that one day you will meet trustworthy friends and not be alone. Best of luck for the future. Best wishes, Lisa x