Helpless No matter how hard I tried to persuade myself not to face the reality, eventually I still need to wake up from my dream. I may say I am romantic, and full of imagination, since sometimes daily life are tiring and frustrating, I would love to stay in my fantasy world, trying to escape from real life. One of the things I do often is watching movies (DVDs). I could focus all my thoughts and attention on the plot , lines, characters, and scene at least 2-3 hours/time , and enjoy the fiction (sometimes nonfiction) world ; I could just find a comfortable place to sit, having whatever snacks and beverage I want, without caring about what people think of me, that’s really relaxing! One of the interested things is to analyze myself, though most of the time it bothers myself a lot since it cause over-thinking or worry too much even things are not that bad. By being awaken by the real world, I really feel helpless, even sad . Even by now I still can’t know what I should do , those conflict thought kept pop up and bring more questions. Where or how can I find the answer ? I like this is what people called 'heartsickness.'