Waiting for Godot 

I'm using the title to express my feelings: I have no hope, I don't know where to goI'm going, but I must keeping walking on the road of life.
Today is a nice day and if I were 18, I would happily go out to play with my friends. But since I started college I prefer to stay at home since I have been to  college. I just don't want to meet people. I can't explain why. My friends are busy these days, and they are strangers to me because we haven't seen each other for more than a year. Sometimes I don't understand what they think about, sometimes they laugh at me. I'm lazy, and I know they always regard me as a little child. 

I have many things I need to do but I don't want to take action. I will sleep all day if I want to and I spend my leisure time playing computer games.
I am can't sleepless at night, I worrying about my the future, I don't kown how to achieve my dreams, and I don't know what I am waiting for.

(I hope you don't mind that I edit it a lot, I had done less but then I read your request, so I tried to make it more natural.)

(Remember to leave a space after punctuations).

Everyone feels like that from time to time. But I believe that with the right people/circumstances you won't you just need to maximise the chances of finding the right people/place. I hope you find them soon!