A Stupid Behavior

The 6th day of 2013.

How stupid I am! I criedy for that man again! The more you love someone, the more peainful you will be without him.

I hope things can will be better. I cherish (Do you mean "hope" or "wish"? I am not sure "cherish" is the word you want here.) that time will heal my wounds. Things seemed to go well this morning. I got up early and spent one hour on a VOA report. My goodness! So many new words in this report! A little upset, I thought about my poor English.

Anyway, I spared no effort on English. I felt better and washed my hair, dried the hair it, and went to work. When I walked on along that street, I tried to do something to distract me from missing that guy. I listened to the music and followed it. Still, he came into my mind.

Making phone calls was my task. It really worked in the morning, one boss (Do you mean "client" or "customer"?) had the intention to of working with our company. I was excited and then had lunch. But in the afternoon, when I called a company, the man on the other side of the phone said: “Fuck!” I was totally shocked and talked with some workmates, but nobody paid attention to me.

I was really sad, and to make it worse, I missed that man again. I needed his encouragement! When I finished work, after getting out of the Metro station, I cried.

I haven’t criedy for years. I always tell myself that there’s nothing that deserves your tears. It’s funny, the third time, for the one (What is the "one"? I'm a bit confused.) hurt me so deeply.

How stupid I am! I’m so weak now! However, Iif you want to cry, just cry. After the tears dry, be stronger. You should know that no one will show mercy to you!!

I am very sorry for you. I hope you feel better soon!