Live by yourself when he came back to you 6months ago, i could see the brightness and the light from your eyes. you said that he told you that he have changed. he not the same as before. he taught you how to get closer with God. for the first time, i thought he is a very kind and amazing man that i ever heard. but when every single day, both of you called and text each other. i felt uneasy. i always taught of it. before class, during lunch, after class, during dinner, and the whole night until both of you feel sleepy, phone always in your hand. does it means he really changed??? he always told you every single day, every single message, that both of you just friend...friend not more than that...because he said that both of you can't be a couple because our religion forbid it. but with all what you done, doesn't it shows that you are couple??? your topic became weird day by day. from study, interest, wedding until finally first night...even sex!!!! what all of this about??!!!! i really upset with you. that's why i make our distance larger and broader. i'm so sorry but i couldn't accept all of this anymore... don't ever talk about him anymore...because i'm SICK of it