Even to believers, I'm a disbeliever.

Sometimes I think I have some kind of my own unique faith that no one else in the world has. And I am talking about faith in the Almighty one and not in myself.

When I try to explain to Muslims that Jesus and Isaac are both sons of God who were created by magic devine power instead of sexual intercourse, they call me a disbeliever. They also call me a disbeliever when I try to tell them that it was Jesus who died for our sins, because they think that it's only Allah who is always loving and can forgive us. But I do not think it is that easy. Because I know from the old testament when he wipes whole Israel out, that he gets extremely angry as well. 

( WTF??!!  The god of the old testament is Yahweh!  The Muslim god is Allah!  It was a wrathful Yahweh who always got pissed off at the Jews and everyone else in the old testament.  Allah is the wrathful god who always got pissed off at the infidels.  These are two different gods who were contrived during two different periods in history.  Although both gods did share common traits.  Allah and Yahweh both possessed destructive human characteristics such as jealousy and cruelty.  

When I try to tell Christians not to eat pork and to make burnt offerings as done in the old testament, they call me a disbeliever as well. My mother even told me that I'm a disbeliever because I'm not part of a Christian community. This is total crap! As if Jesus would've closed his door to somebody who is not a part of the community. He would've let anyone come in!

The Jews will still reject me even if I make burnt sacrifices as Moses had instructed that the Jews of Israel in the old testament must do.  The Jews will always say to the Gentiles,  "You're not a part of Israel and you can't be one of us." Also the same holds true if I were to try to tell them that Jesus is just like Isaac, because he is a son of Yahweh.

So what now? Shall I start my own church? Does at least somebody else also share my beliefs?

I know I can't be wrong, because I know he has always helped me in many ways. For example,  getting a job or having luck in many things which might could have otherwise turned dangerous for me. He is always on my side. So I'm for surely not on the wrong way path. If I say that Jesus is the son of God, and it wouldn't be right: Why he would he have helped me so much then? Also I'm not a part of his civilization, Israel.  But I told him so often that I'm always ready to burn a cow or a goat, and he never was angry about that. Otherwise, he would have stopped helping me.

Could it be that I'm a new prophet, telling the people about a new way? I do not believe so. I maybe would love to fight for freedom and for the poor people, but I do not want to be some kind of holy man or prophet. And I can't be anyway. Because I'm a disbeliever to the rest of the world, although I'm really a believer. This is such a shame for me.  I cannot even show my faith on the streets.  Because even the believers say that I'm a disbeliever, no matter what I do.

I guess that I really have to be alone all my life, but I do not care. Do I need someone else if the Almighty is at my side? I do not think so. Love comes only from him anyway: and never from humans.

No one prays for me. So I will pray for myself.

Part B

And If I do burn sacrifices (make burnt offerings) as Moses said (did) then the Jews tell me, "You are not a part of Israel and so no member of us."  Also the same It is the same if I would try to tell them Jesus is just as Isaak, a son of Jahwe.

So what now? Shall I found my own church? Does at least somebody anyone share my beliefs? (The words somebody, something, somewhere etc., are used in affirmative clauses, whereas the words anybody, anything, anywhere etc., are used in negative and interrogative sentences.  Anybody and somebody are usually more informal than anyone and someone.)

I know I cannot be wrong because I know He always helps ed me in many ways. For example, getting a job or having luck in many things which might could have been turned dangerous to for me. He is always on my side. So I'm for sure not on the wrong path way. If I say Jesus is the son of Him and it is incorrect, wouldn't be right why he would He help me then so much? Also Although I'm not a part of his civilization Israel, but I have told Him so often that I'm always ready to burn sacrifice a cow or a goat and He has never been was angry about that.  If He were, otherwise He would have stopped to help helping me. also.

Could it be that I'm a new prophet telling the people a new way? I do not believe so. I maybe would loveto fight for freedom and for the poor people, but I do not want to be kind of holy or a prophet. And I cannot be anyway because to the rest of the world I'm a disbeliever, even though although I believe ("even though" is stronger and more emphatic than "although," but either one can be used here). This is such a shame for me. I cannot even show my faith on the streets because even the beleivers say I'm a disbeliever no matter what I do.

I guess I will I really have to be alone all my life I guess. But I do not care. Do I need anyone/anybody somebody if the Mighty One is at my side? I do not think so. Love comes only from Him anyway, and never from humans.

No one prays for me, so I will pray for myself.

There are too many characters here.  I have separated my corrections; this is Part A and Part B is below.

Sometimes I think I have some kind of my own a type of faith like no one else has in the world. And I am talking about faith into the Almighty One (words designating deities are capitalized,) and not into in myself.

When I try to explain the to Muslims (the names of religions and their followers should be capitalized) that Jesus and Isaak (Isaac) are both sons of God although they were created by magic instead of sexual intercourse.  They call me a disbeliever. Also, they call me a disbeliever when I try to tell them that Jesus died also for their sins. But They think that Allah is always lovely and He (pronouns referring to deities should be capitalized) always forgives us. But I do not think it is that easy because from in the Old Testament (religious books are capitalized) I know He got gets extremely so angry as well that He wipes wiped out (destroyed, annihilated) whole Israel out.

When I try to tell the Christians to not to eat pork meat (using "pork" and "meat" is redundant.  Pork is defined as "the meat of a pig that is used for food.)and to do burnt (burned and burnt are both used as the past tense of burn) offerings as told described in the Old Testament and they call me a disbeliever, as well. My mother even told me I'm a disbeliever because I'm not part of a Christian community. This is total crap! As if Jesus would had close his door to ("on" is better than "to" in this sentence) somebody who is not a part of the community. He would have had let come anyone come in!