Oh I'm sorry you're having all these negative feelings. We all go through such times when everything seems to be very dark and hopeless. It's ok to have those feelings from time to time for we're merely human beings. Cry if it helps, chat with someone, take a walk or get a paper and write down everything that upsets you and then cut it into little pieces, as if you're crushing your problems, and flung it into the fire. And always remember that at the end of the dark tunnel there's light. The hard times will eventually pass, nothing stays the same.