I have been learning English for about 12 years? and I still don't get it? What a fool I am.

I started learning English when I was 7 years old. I have been able to say the alphabet and numbers and also couple of words like colors, animals, fruit and things since I was 5. For 12 years I have learned English with many different types of teacher or lecturer. But up until now I can't speak or write in English fluently.
What's the reason? It's because I hate tenses, actually. I hate patterns and tenses -there are so many (read:16) and kinds of pattern I have to remember. Haha, its is a cliche things, but that's the truth. I don't know why I hate tenses. May be because my teachers taught me in boring ways, and they are not  native speakers, so I didn't have a passion to learning tenses. I understand when someone speaking in English, but it is always hard for me to speak like they do. Oh, I don't want to say any more. I think it's enough.

First of all you have written that well. There are just two typesc errors. Firstly tenses, the dreaded tenses; and secondly when you should use singular or plural. These are both due to the Indonesian language having a different structure to English. For example 'Saya sudah makan' can mean 'I eat', 'I have already eaten', or 'I ate', three different tenses. Ada mobil di depan can mean 'There is a car in front' or 'There are some cars in front'.Other than those erors the rest is excellent.

When I first studied 'Teaching English as a Foreign Language' they made me learn how to teach the 16 tenses and gave them all names like Present Perfect Continuous. They are meaningless to most English people !! The real way to learn English or any other language is to use it and to practice. Don't worry about the mistakes, you will gradually learn them correctly. What you wrote above shows you already have a good knowledge of English. Keep it up and good luck :-)