Shadow's notebook entry: Sep 04, 2010 i'll have my first toefl test,honestly, i'm afraid of the exam. the reason why i have to have this exam is my American dream. i want to know more about this country and to feel it's culture. American is a beautiful place,not only because it's a strong country but also it can contain various cultures harmoniously. but i know it's not easy to live there, and many problems will disturb me which let me can't focus on study.i'm sure it's a tough way for me. all of my friends think i can't handle these problems, but i still want to try my best to catch this chance, fight for my dream!!