There was a time, I was a lovely, Lively and optimistic girl. I miss that special time but some famliy troubles and that boy has changed me a lot. From there onwards, it happened that some upside down changes has changed my world. 

I was never been happy. I started to become hypocritical and pretend as melancholy. At the same time, I started smoking and dringing in the slience . I haven't many friends, only one or two.

During the day time, I feel more and more lonely. I became a role model in the eye of the bad girls. My teachers began to hate me which took my class fellows  away from me. I began to like all things which others didn't like.  Sometime, I like rain, its lonely and quiet. I hate festivals becasue it brings  livelyhood but I have rejected the happiness and joy. 

Maybe during adolescence, at this stage, I much rebellion. 

Now, I have to get rid of those bad habits, I try to smile, I gave up everything, those bad haoobits which I have adopted. I started to become outstanding sincere. I made it possible due to my rebellious attitude and I was covered all over with cuts and bruises.  I grew up now. When I was 17 years old, I felt that doing all this stuff is funny and irreverent. 

But experienced one can know the sad melancholy which treason  the color of youth! I don't regret after all these! I love myself. I love tomorrow. I look forward for tomorrow!

Good and bad things happen in life but its better if we learn from our mistakes. Everyone make mistakes. Good thing is that you have realized your mistakes. Every person derserve a second chance and this is your. Make sure to make it count. World is cruel, it dont give you chances everytime. If you have only 2 friends, numbers doesnt matter as long as those 2 friends are your true friends. Forget about past and live in present. I wish all the best for you and your life, Cheers.