I think anything challenging can be too much if you see how far to completing it perfectly (such as be a natural English speaker like a native speaker). Why not focus just on the next level? Then you can make progress and succeed each time. Getting better should be good enough because you are going in the right direction and each time better than before. Clearer, freer, more skilful. You also need friends to support and encourage you. We think our challenge is our own problem, but all should be happy to share and support each other. Together we are stronger, better, happier. So have your friends around you for each challenge! I think friends like to support each other. Maybe you are an ambitious girl. I am sure you will get your chance to live your life. I saw your answer to the question about happiness and put a comment on there. I hope you are enjoying a positive life. Believe in yourself and your future even if you don't know how you will get there! Absolute best wishes for finding your way in life and the important things for your future! Martin