We are growing up. 我们长大了 - 20120623 When we were in high school, we would correct the teachers if they wrote anything wrong in the blackboard or talked inaccurately. When we were in university, we seldom corrected mistakes of our teachers. Some of us dared not to tell teachers, some thought it was funny instead of anything serious, and some of us didn't understand what the teachers were talking about at all. 以前老师上课板书写错了或者讲错了，我们会提醒更正。 大学上课，老师弄错了，没人说话，一部分是不敢说，一部分是没什么可说，一部分是看笑话，还有一部分是根本不知道讲得是什么。 In some Chinese companies, especially some private ones, one of the most important rules is to be obedient to the managers/bosses. It affected our personality in a bad way. For me, sometimes I felt worried that I was too silent in public. It seemed that I had been used to be a "politely obedient" girl. I was always hesitated to express my opinions. Even if sometimes I felt bad to follow opinions of others. The lack of "passionately showing my unique personality" made me less and less confident. Whenever I had to speak in public, I felt nervous, I didn't think I can impress others. This psychological suggestion made my situation worse. I discussed this problem with my oral English teacher, with whom I could always speak naturally and fluently, even if in English. The reply I got was:"When you talk with me, you could always choose a topic that you are good at, then you are more confident. And when you talk to others, you pay too much attention to organise a satisfying conversation, in which you may need various of unfamiliar words. Your psychological suggestion tells you that you cannot handle it well before you start. That is the root of failure. What you need to improve, it your own attitude. You must belive that you are still making a good progress, even if sometimes you pronounce wrongly and use improper words. Most of us can still understand you well. The important thing for you is, you must speak clearly. Don't rush to finish a sentense, as if you may forget it soon. Take your time and relax." Ok, I think I really need to slow down the speed when I speak. Otherwise I will omit some syllables, as I have noticed. I am growing up as an adult now, I must be mature in different occasions. Being brave to speak out my ideas is the first step I need to take now. ---------------- I found a nice song today called 《Drenched》, by Wanting Qu, who is the first Chinese singer signed by Nettwerk Music Group in Canada.