Broke up I had been going out with my boyfriend for about 4 months, but these days, we broke up. I met him while I was studying abroad in the U.S. He is Japanese, not American. The period of my study abroad was about 4 months, from August to December. At first, he was going to go back to Japan the same period of time as me, but he is studying abroad himself because he is not a university student. He wanted to study in the U.S more, so he decided to stay longer. I went back to Japan on December 11. At first, I thought I can handle this long-distance relationship even if I cannot meet him. The long distance was not good for me. We used to talk on skype until the middle of January, but his winter break was done and I started to go to school every day for the concert practice, so we could not take a contact so much than before. I always missed him until March. I sent him some messages, but sometimes I thought he does not miss me. I felt lonely....I thought I am a poor girl. Finally, I told him my honest feeling. "I am so lonely, and if you can, please send me a message when you are free." I received a mail from him. Actually, he does not miss me. The study abroad is really exciting for him. He said, he rarely send a mail, so it will not change even if he go back to Japan. I know him feelings because I have experienced that feelings. I sent my parents and friends just a few mails while I was studying abroad also because I really enjoyed my life in Colorado. I did not care about Japan. However, I though I cannot contain my grief anymore, so I decided to break up with him. I saied good-bye. Actually, he is my first boyfriend, so I did not know how what should I do...I might trouble him. However, I will be able to be stronger than before. The spring semester has already begun, so I will be very busy, but I do want to study as hard as I can. Sometimes I am emotionally unstable, but I will change my mind soon. It is about time to study hard.