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Those times when i was a school-boyi couldn't explain to myself why to learn some rules of English grammar is so hard for me. (When I was a schoolboy I couldn't explain to myself why some of the rules of English grammar were so hard for me. Nowadays i won't start this entry with words same as "My first step in English", or "One more attempt to make my English better"...(Nowadays, I won't start my entries with phrases such as "My first step in English" or "One more attempt to make my English better". There are more than 15 years passed away, but i'm don't know any rules yet, except -s at the end of noun means that number of items is more than one.

(More than 15 years have passed and I don't know any rules yet. I know that the ending -s at the end of nouns means that number of items is more than one.)

And also a little bit more than one and a half (: (Sorry, I dont know what you were trying to say here.) Any time i has dreamin' of my fluent English i was a lier. (Any time I have dreamt of being fluent in English I was lieing.)

And that's why: First of all i has used an incorrect mental models. (I was using incorrect methods.) It's easy to explain for me now, cause more than 6 years i do my job as a UX designer.(It's easy for me to explain now, because I have been an UX designer for 6 years now.) I like to watch different methods that people interact with "everyday things", design new interaction patterns & make some analysis. (I like to watch different methods of interacting between people and everyday things, then I design new interaction patterns & make some analyses.) Indeed it won't make me closer to spell checking in English, but it also works.(but it works.)

The second one is a emotion blindness.There are to(too) many differences in cultural, historical & social backgounds of native speakers. That's why my desktop has(was) filled (in) less than a month with more than fifty books of english (English) literature, music, art & others (other material). Cause it's only one way to be done with my fluent English - make a right mental models in my mind. As same models of thinking as pure englishman have.(The only way to be fluent in English is to have a correct mental model as a pure englishman.) Surely i(I) could pick up some overused phrases & manage them, but it's not the right way for(in) my opinion. Anyway(,) the rules knowledge wouldn't be helpful in this way, cause(because) the "Rain is falling" phrase is quite prettyfor Russian but truly unsuccessful for English. Rain is an inanimate thing in English.(Anyways, the rules wouldn't be helpful in this way because the "Rain is falling" phrase is understood by Russians but doesnt make sense for English (speakers). Rain is an inanimate thing in English.) "It's rainy outside" - is a good deal. (It's better to say "It's rainy outside".) Grammar rules won't be able so helpful & safety to prevent this(these) mistakes. I'm(I) already knew(know) that all of that massive of letters(my entry) contains a pack of various mistakes, which should be corrected. And i'll(I'll) be happy if you correct me each time as i did it(I do something the) wrong way. I promise to be patient (:(.) There's a gr8(great) problem with verbs & times, It proceeds from my sсhool time.(I dont know what you were trying to say here.) And I fairly admit that I used the dictionary only 4 times before i finish(I finished) this note.

I don't think. I feel.

Those times when i was a school-boy i couldn't figure out why to learning certain  English grammar rules was so hard for me. Nowadays i won't start this entry with words such as "My first step in English", or "One more attempt to make my English better"... There are more than 15 years have passed away, but I don't know any rules yet, except that -s at the end of nouns means that number of items is more than one. And also a little bit more than one and a half (: Any time i dreamt of speaking fluent English, i was a fooling myself. And that's why: First of all i have used an incorrect mental models. It's very clear to me now, because for more than 6 years i have worked as a UX designer. I like to observe different methods where people interact with "everyday things", design new interaction patterns & make some analysis. Indeed it won't bring me closer to spellchecking in English, but it also works. The second one is an emotion blindness.There are to many differences in the cultural, historical & social backgounds of native speakers. That's why my desktop has become filled in less than a month with more than fifty books on english literature, music, art & others. Because it's the only one way to acquire my fluent English - create the right mental models in my mind. The same thinking models that native englishman have. Surely i could pick up some overused phrases & manage them, but it's not the right way in my opinion. Anyway a knowledge of rules wouldn't be helpful in this way, because a phrase such as "Rain is falling" is quite pretty in Russian, but truly unsuccessful for English. Rain is an inanimate object in English. "It's rainy outside" - is a good deal.
Grammar rules won't prove helpful or  safety for preventing these mistakes. I'm already knew that all of these letters contain a pack of various mistakes, which should be corrected. And i'll be happy if you correct me each time as i did it wrong way. I promise to be patient (: There's a great problem with verbs & tenses, It proceeds from my sсhool days. And I humbly admit that I used the dictionary only 4 times before i finished this note.

PS Thanx in advance for your corrections.
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