He'll keep you in a jar, then you'll think you're happy

All the men I want to marry are dead now. I’m afraid I’ll refuse any other marriage proposal unless they are from the ghosts of Kurt Cobain, Layne Staley, Ian Curtis or River Phoenix.

I have a bad luck. Once someone said that I was born in the wrong time and wrong place. Now that wasn't very nice of them.You'll learn to disregard other's rudeness, it's not worth your time to write about it or even think about it :) You are better than that. Some people just behave as children or they don't realize they were being mean, if you want to give them the benefit of the doubt. Either way, brush it off your shoulder. People will always say rude and silly things, now who is in the wrong? You or them? Clearly they are. They just need a hug or something :P 

I forgot his name but somehow I remember he was from New York. A city which I would never like to go.  He was from New York? Really now, that's neat :) Yes who needs NYC when you have Istanbul!! (No corrections needed yet!)

I’m still practising (<--British English it's 'practising'. American English it's 'practicing' ) on my “not giving a shit about anything smile”. <--Infact why? :) Why do this?  Practice smiling! And if someone has a problem with you smiling I guess deep down that person has a pain they never resolved yet. :) Everyone seems to carry an emotional baggage with them, we need more people in this world to smile :D Yes it's hard to fight the current of life, but it's sometimes the right thing to do, for the better :D

I believe it does work. Hmm :)  Now, I am less likely to jump off the nearest bridge. That’s a considerable improvement for my sick brain. Maybe I am recovering. Well I'm here for you as a friend if you need any help okay? :)  Or maybe this is just the calm before the storm. <--Very poetic :) Infact I think at this point in your life, you are in the storm :) The calm will come later and it's worth all the struggle. You can do it my friend :) I wonder how long it will last until I go back living under my quilt. With Teddy. <--Whichever is comfortable I guess. Maybe you can upgrade your Teddy to another pillow :)

But some things should change. I'd rather live in a house where spinach is never cooked. Agreed :) No.. really any food is worth being grateful over. Food is just for energy. You can make like the French and eat it for 'pleasure' though :P Stay away from oysters! :P


Peace, Love, Empathy