Emptiness. Have you ever felt an emptiness inside your heart, as if you wanted to cry but you couldn't? You ended up in agony, nobody was there for you. Have you ever been in lost? You went astray, you realized it but you just didn't know how to turn yourself back and you just let yourself went away from the right path? I was in those situation when I was in Form 3. I was a rebellious kid, often fought with my mother, sneaked out from house and ran away for a couples of week, I scratched her, broke her heart into a million pieces, frankly I didn't do my obligations. I didn't care. I was too deeply in love with a fun and joy things. I forgot everything as if I would live forever. Felt inquisitive with the bad things, but I kept myself sane from drowning myself into it. I felt empty, uneasy and it ain't that fun as I thought. It suffocated me. Those things beckoned me. This wasn't right. I am not me. I was stranded. So I went to many Islamic camping during the weekends. I turned into a new leaf. Though like looking a needle in the haystack, I pushed myself back to where I belong. At first, it wasn't easy and simple. I had to constantly do good things and leave the bad things behind. It was tough but if I didn't try, it wouldn't start. As time elapsed, finally I did it. I can manage myself well until now, sometimes I might go astray because nobody is perfect but Alhamdulillah I am still a Muslim. If you wish to focus on Islam, then start from the scratch. Give yourself time to adapt to the little things involved in becoming a practising Muslim. Pray to Allah (SWT) to guide towards this beautiful journey and path. Allah is always with us :)