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I miss the comfort in being sad

I have a middle name that I don't like to have : Nur. It means divine light. Güzel.. Sounds rather ironic if we consider that my relationship with God is not going very well. He never calls me. You must open your heart, ..and listen. I would call him but I can't find the paper I wrote down his phone number. Think twice when choosing your child's name. That is the gist of my pharagraph. Stive to not be unjust..

Now all the members of italki have an opinion on the new changings. First words that came from my mouth after seeing the bigger inbox button and old messages from some people that I don't even remember, were "What the ..." Then I said I hated it, though I don't care at all.

I've always found quite exaggerated we human-being's reactions to the small incidents happening suddenly.( That's if we have little self-control, almost never a good thing)  We can't say "Oh, some things have changed, OK." and go on living in the new way. We just can't. How could we? What are we going to do now? Adding friends, following friends, messages; they've all changed now!

I deleted some messages that had been deleted before. So what? The only thing that bothers me not seeing who is online on the start page. Maybe I'll leave here soon. I've been thinking of deactivation for a pretty long time.  Italki doesn't ease my boredom anymore. I'll go back using real pen and paper.  I'll write, write and put the papers in my secret box. No comment, no advice, no friend. I'm here =0 =)  Also no correction. I've told mom to burn the box with my body after my death. She said OK. Tamam, Very well then =P




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